wow

i started this a while back, and have become involved in a couple other projects. sorry for the neglect. this moves to the top of the priority pile.

this has been a challenge for both of us.

it's a funny thing, trust. when you have it, you have it completely. once you've lost it - you guessed it, the pendulum swings way the hell over to the other side. actually, a pendulum is the wrong thing to compare it to. it's more like a rope, tied secure from some high point in the middle, and when you break someone's trust, the rope gets cut loose, and swings in the breeze.

now to grab ahold of that bastard, and get it back where it belongs.

please, think before you act. think. jesus christ, think.

the emotional strain is way more than you'll ever know. when you see what you've done to the other person, it takes it's toll on you emotionally. i know. i see it. i feel it. the good news is the "bad" days are fewer for now, but that's not to say that one doesn't pop it's evil head in once in a while.

so, the lesson for today is this: if you don't want your rope twisting in the wind, think.

i hope that made sense to someone other than me.